Goodnight Beautiful.

Let me just preface this segment by saying, unlike everything else in my life, with David, I decided to throw caution to the wind. I say this because I allowed myself to be in close quarters with a man I was enamored with for years. I’ve already explained how handsome he is. If I had not already made it clear, he is also a true man of God. These and many other attributes attracted me to him even the more. So, to be in close quarters with him could have on certain occasions, been disastrous to my walk with God. I had already made up my mind before David stepped back into my life, that I would wait on the Lord to provide my husband before I would be intimate with anyone again. But it wasn’t my will or strength that kept me. It was the grace of God! So, to you dear reader, I say be cautious. Take the advice of my mother, “Although During temptation, God will provide a way of escape, do not put yourself in a position that will require God to make a way of escape for you. You already know going in, that temptation awaits you.”

David arrived in Dallas in July of 2016! If nothing else, I was so elated just to be able to lay eyes on him again after 4 years. He was just as I remembered him but more handsome and (clears throat) bulked up! There were muscles everywhere! You hear me?! Chiiile what have I gotten myself into? As he approached the car from the waiting area at the airport, I could see those all too familiar pearly whites he sported 4 years ago. He has the brightest smile I’ve ever seen on a man. And just like that, all my feelings from before came rushing back in. Our first embrace could have lasted forever! I am surprised I didn’t get honked at by the cars behind me.

Over the next couple of days during his visit, we did everything from kayaking, and visiting the gun range, to bow and arrow shooting. There were countless breakfast, lunch and dinner dates. The conversations we had, we’re intriguing and gave me insight to his thoughts and cares. We laughed. This visit was the breath of fresh air I needed, and I could feel a shift occurring. It felt like there had been no time missed. Like 4 years had not passed since I last seen him. We talked like we never missed a beat. It was easy being around him.

During our bow and arrow session, I caught a glimpse of what I could have sworn was intrigue in his eyes when he looked at me. Later that evening we had dinner at a restaurant and from across the table as I talked, I could feel him gazing at me. I thought about opening the conversation up then and telling him about my feelings for him but I felt a quiet nudge to hold off. I obeyed. If you know me, you know I love to dance. Chicago style stepping is a favorite style of dancing for me. After dinner, I got the opportunity to teach David how to do this dance. And we literally danced the night away. Before we would go our separate ways for the night, David held my hands just a bit longer than the dance required, and I received a single kiss to the forehead. “Goodnight beautiful.”

My mind was racing!!!!! So many thoughts and more importantly, so many questions. I know I’m not making this up. There was definitely something there. I was off to bed, left to wonder and ponder his actions from the day’s activities when I received a knock at the door. “I wanted to make sure you were not confused about our day today. Everything that happened was not by coincidence. I intended for us to have this day together this way. I intended to show you how I felt. The feelings are mutual.” And with that… “Again, Goodnight Beautiful.” He walked away and I closed my door. Flushed!!!!

Sadly, David’s visit was coming to an end. We spent the whole week together enjoying each other’s presence. We spent every waking moment in deep conversation almost as if to make up for lost time. We talked about past relationships and our future plans. As David talked, I began to realize that we desired a lot of the same things. He too had been in conversation with God about waiting and abstaining. He had been doing so, already for some time now.

After David returned to Tennessee, he wanted to make sure we were on the same page. He called to discuss our time we spent together the past week and wanted to know if I was ok with moving forward together in a relationship. Lol my exact response was, “I think that will be a good idea.” Lol to this day, he reminds me of that response I gave him lol. We made plans to visit one another often. Since we both understood this would be a long-distance relationship, we knew going in, that meant lots of plane flights and phone conversations. “Since I came to visit you first, now it’s your turn to come and visit me,” David said on one of our phone conversations. I agreed and called his bluff. Or so I thought. “When do you want me to come visit?” He replied without hesitation, “If you don’t already have birthday plans, then come visit then.” Soooooo I was on a plane by September of that same year. And so, it began…